Monday, October 26, 2009
*blows blows*
*choke choke*
PHEW!
sry..very dusty here..lol
tdy marks the first day of my study break...
before exam hell breaks loose...
but most importantly....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LIAN!!!!!!
im sry i cant be there to celebrate ur bdae..
really really sry...
wish you all the best, and have a wonderful time eating!! hehe..
and to all my other friends aso!!
ill try to make it up to all of u when i get back! =D
and just like this,
uni is coming to an end!
well, this semester and year anyway...
got 2 more years to go...
its been a hectic year..
where assignments and reports and tests all come at the same time..
the record was 7 ongoing assignments and reports at one point!!
whoever said it was easier here should be slapped in the head.. -.-
but well...exams in a week's time..
and that's it!!
back to singapore for food..more food..more more food...
and badminton!! hehe...i seriously cant wait!!
exam timetable sucks once again..
last sem it started on the very first day (sat smmore),
and ended on the very last day...
this time round!!! 3 papers in 3 consecutive days!!
and den final paper 6 days away..
2nd, 3rd, 4th and 10th Nov...
zzzz sucky right...
oh wells....no use whinging..
shall just grit my teeth and get through it..
last sem...i initially thought i was going to fail 2 of 4 units..
but not only didnt i fail,
but ended up doing much much better than i expected!!..
that was a HUGE relief/surprise...
though it prolly was the result of scaling,
and not of my smartness or hardworkingness..
which if you know me well enough, i do not have...=)
hopefully this time round,
3 papers in 3 days won't kill me, or my results!! zzz
so many things have changed and happened this yr,
that returning back home will feel quite weird ...
grandparents have moved out of Seletar,
the very place where i have spent all family reunions
ever since i was born..
no longer will we eat steamboat in the house,
play sparklers and soccer and whatnots in the garden..
no more chiku tree which my ah gong planted specially for me..
no more rambutans from the tree at the back..
now all thats left is 21 years of memories..
cant help but feel sad when i think abt it =/
and i dont rmb if i mentioned it,
but sue went back to indonesia in july..=(
and now theres a new maid in the house,
and also a new maid with my grandparents too..
BUT!!! i'll get used to the changes somehow..
which i always do..
despite it all,
i cant wait to get back to singapore..
but then again, ill miss my wkend outings here!!
and the walks to the beach...and at the beach..
will be away for 3 months...
hopefully things will pick up where it left off when i come back..=/
the past few months have been great..more than great actually..
to say the truth, life would not have been any different
if our paths have never crossed,
but now,
it's impossible to imagine my life without you in it anymore..
i dont know where time and circumstances will lead us to
in the next few months or years,
but i thank you for all the memories,
the talks, the fun, the care..hehe
and everything else! =) <3
k i better go study...
IVT, EVT, MVTs' are calling!!
stupid calculus...-.-
byebye...
cya soon!!
*i take comfort in knowing you'll never let me go, through it all*
Saturday, April 11, 2009
i will be the first to admit i have a general dislike for her.
not hate, just general dislike.
it was the way she acted..
her behaviour..
the way she didnt accept us as family.
the pair of staring eyes,
always staring at you and what you do,
the wanting to know everything.
thats why we go out of our way to avoid her.
heck, she has made things so difficult
that even her son tries to avoid her.
there were numerous times when she would just stand in the corridor,
staring at their door,
maybe just hoping to catch a glimpse of them.
but still....
that door will never open.
not when they know she's out there.
how do i know?
cause i'll be staring out of the gap in my door.
its times like this when i can look at her without her knowing,
that i feel this sense of....
i dont know..
pity? compassion?
and i feel like just telling her to go to bed.
but then,
i would close my door softly again.
close the door to things i would rather not see,
to feelings i rather not feel.
yes, as much as i do dislike her,
as much as we have no blood relation,
as much as she doesn't accept us,
i do feel sorry for her,
i do still have a heart.
i'm just wondering,
if she's really gone,
how would i feel?
what am i supposed to feel?
even though it doesnt seem good,
but still.....
get well soon.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
there's only 6 days left,
and shit.............
i feel like crying zzz
& i haven't start packing.
-.-
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
last post of the year!
i wanted to wait till the last minute of 2008 to post this,
but i think i'll be busy playing games and stuff..
LOL
my cousins' family is back from australia!
whee!!!
but as they all miss singapore food,
it also means we'll be eating ALOT for most of the days.
fats and tyres and tummy and more fat!
now for refer-lections.
2008 was relatively uneventful for the first 3 quarters of the year.
it was always work and overtime and the cycle repeats.
even that said, i still loved the workplace,
not the labs, but jurong island itself. hohoho.
i quitted my job in the mid of october,
and though many scolded me stupid,
said that i should have collected my bonus first,
but now i realise,
i don't regret my decision at all.
i got to spend more time with my family,
cause with work sometimes i don't even see my mum for 2/3 days straight.
and my dad, sometimes even a whole month,
and sometimes even longer! zzz
Also, since quitting work,
thanks to one of my relatives,
i finally got to play badminton regularly!
which i haven't done ever since i left sec school.
or rather i rediscovered the passion for playing badminton.
twice a week in the late mornings,
and i even wish i can play everyday!!!!
then in november,
wall went for his operation.
and he has more or less recovered now,
though he's been advised not to fly for at least half a year,
which means he won't be going over with me next year anymore.
hoho there goes his holidays.
and last thing on the agenda,
i haven't started packing anything!!!!!!!
worse thing is,
i don't know what i should pack.
someone advised me to bring clothes hangers,
cause apparently it's expensive over there.
like.....huh?! hangers.
time is flying...
and i only have a little more than a month left.
which means outing outing and more outings!
see, gonna get fat again zzz hahaha
and i realised i gave out some wrong info,
i said i was flying on the _th,
but since the flight's at _:__am,
it means i'm actually checking in on the _th at _:__pm.
haha, notice why there's no numbers?
cause i want to disturb someone who's been asking me for my flight details.
& because i'm so mean, i don't wanna tell her. YET. lol lol =x=x
if you wanna clarify the flight details,
please ask me again!
thanks!
ok, i'm more or less done here,
and i'm going to play games with my cousins!
so bye!
have a nice 2008 you people,
and see ya all in 2009.....
till i fly off in february..
ok, BYE!!!
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
happy birthday to my daddy....!!
though he's not in singapore right now.
but at least i didn't forget his bdae
like he forgot mine.
-.-
maybe next time he'll even forget he has a daughter.
lol
you wouldnt be reading this, but...
imissyou!!!
-big hugs!!!!- =)
*so near yet so far,
why cant i just turn back time.*