Monday, October 02, 2006
omg omg omg.. whyyyyyyyyyy !!!!!i hate my mum. ahhhhhh. whhhyyyy. if only she didnt call me, if only i didnt go to the kitchen, if only i hadnt pick tt exact time to go to the kitchen, if only i hadnt stepped or rather, stomped on her, if only..................AHHHHH !!!!!! *expletives* if only i hadnt turned back to look, if only i hadnt saw tt she was motionless.. den i wudnt hav screamed, den i wudnt hav felt so disgusted, den i wudnt have felt lik vomittin, den i really wudnt have VOMITTED.
nw she's dead.. there are only qns's left.. why didnt she run ? wad the hell was i tinkin at that time ? did i really stepped on her tt hard tt caused her death ? qns qns and MORE QNSSSS !!!!!! and no ansssss !!!! ARGHHH !!!
my mind's a blank..d only thing i can tink of is the way she jus lied there, motionless.. i didnt looked if she was dead.. coz i jus knew it.. she didnt move, not at all.. spent a few hrs huddled on one corner of the bed, leavin it only whenever a wave of nausea hit me.. im a murderess nw.... i murderedddddd...RIGHT IN MY OWN HOME....OMFG.. i need to be left alone for nw..
i cant stop cryin...to tink i murdered...someone save me pls.. i cant stop the tears..