Sunday, June 29, 2008
aint feeling well.
its the flu again.
yes, YET AGAIN.
and sore throat too.
the last time i checked,
my throat had this like small bubble thingy,
with blood in it.
and there's two of it, one of each side.
-.-
dont know why im falling sick so often nowadays.
speaking of sickness, and medicines and doctors,
the last time i went to the doc for my skin condition,
he prescribed steroids, not the bodybuilding type(so he says).
i googled its side-effects, and gosh,
i wondered if its worth taking it to cure the primary problem,
just to end up with more problems.
0.o prednisolone..check it up if you want to. lol
guess i should be sleeping right now,
damn sleepy, but cant sleep.
the boy called not long ago.
says he's going to the hosp.
cold chills and splitting headache.
wouldnt let me go along,
so im waiting, waiting........waiting,
for news, tho hopefully its good.
think i'll go wait on the bed..
tada.....
Saturday, June 21, 2008
all i wanted to do was disappear.
but you,
you came along to pull me out
from the depths of darkness.
i hang on tight,
glad to have found support at last.
but just as you thought i could finally
stand steadfast and firm on my own two feet,
you let go,
.
.
.
.
and back into the depths i fell again.
let me swim in the pits,
let me find my way,
so if i ever get out,
and fall back in again,
i'll know this time,
that the problem lies with me,
within me,
& the only one i have to blame,
is me myself.
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
i dont hate the work.
i dont hate the boss.
i dont hate the people there.
i dont hate that there's alot of work.
i just hate off days, and the stress that comes with it.
can you imagine being called back every off day?
thats what happened the whole of last month.
eventually you just get irritated by it.
and if you're really not free on that day,
it comes to become your fault, your problem.
like its your responsibility,
like you're letting your sister die,
when you know donating an organ will let her live.
im about 99.99% sure the next time the same sms comes in,
something drastic will happen.
maybe then,
i'll be busy clearing away the smashed bits of the phone,
or patching the hole in the wall
-.-
[edited]
i think ive just figured out another reason i dont like work.
during attachment
when we were still at the main lab, the Oiltanking one,
that had a real feel of a lab at work.
seeing the number of people,
the many many machines,
the different departments,
i loved the environment,
and the feel of how the company was a big unit at work.
but now at the new Universal terminal,
there's only 2 departments,
the most no. of people working is like what,
7? or 10 at the most?
seems more like a housing unit then a working place.
it didnt have that LAB feel anymore somehow.
can we please move back,
so that i can have back the motivation to work? zzz
OH, not forgetting the taxi drivers.
not even ONE driver did not complain,
ALL grumbling about how far it is,
saying we should have told them it was this far in,
he wouldnt have taken us as his passengers,
(as if we had a choice not to go back in the first place)
then giving you the black face the rest of the ride.
I TELL YOU!!
you'll just feel like telling them,
oh please, shut up, and just drive.
[edited]
its not about the money,
its about the principle of taking away
something that you were supposed to have.
EVERY SINGLE WEEK.
stress ar stress.
i think waiting for the judge to decide,
on whether you will be sentenced to the death penalty,
also not that stress.
pardon me, but whatthehell.
Monday, June 02, 2008
i do hope CUT replies my email soon.
-.-
if they cant confirm with me yet,
then i cant plan anything too.
which is irritating in a way,
cause i wont know how long more i have to work.
-.-
which im hoping can end earlier =x
unless the boss agrees to let jane come work shift with me.
ahhhhh..thats another story.
lol
the boss had a 1 on 1 with each of us on friday.
talked about OT stuffs YET again.
didnt like his tone when he asked if i ever did go back for OT.
sounded like ive not done any OT at all this month.
!@#$%^
asked if im busy on most weekends.
i said yes, told him i had ppl to meet.
his eyes went 0.0 and he asked why.
i went -.-, can we not talk about this.
and he went hmmmmmmm, ok.
damn awkward pls. zzz
pay came on friday,
and shopping spree came yesterday.
with cher, him and mum in tow =D
had pepper lunch at suntec,
then went over to marina,
i was looking for TIMES &
mum was looking for esprit,
cause she had this 40% disc vouch which was expiring.
in the end it was me who bought things. HAHA
a cute keychain - $11.90
esprit watch - $ secret 0.0
(the watch became my pre-bdae pressie in the end!
thanks mummy!)
they decide to go for coffee,
so i & cher went to TIMES to get my books!!
used to think Jodi Picoult books werent nice,
but after reading My Sister's Keeper in early May,
i got hooked to her books =x
so much so that i went on to buy
Keeping Faith,
then Change of Heart,
then The Pact,
& Songs of the Humpback Whale which im currently reading,
5 of her books in May alone =x=x
have to say out of the 4 that ive read,
the first 3 are seriously good,
but The Pact loses out in some sense.
and yesterday when i saw her books at TIMES,
wanted to buy them all,
but i thought mum would have a fit if she knew,
so ended up........
CURRENT NEWS BREAK: COCKROACH SPOTTED......(YUCKS)
AFTER A BRIEF ENCOUNTER WITH SHIELDTOX,
ATTEMPTED TO ESCAPE BY CLIMBING UP THE CUP,
BUT PLOPPED BACK ONTO THE TABLE,
WITH 4 LEGS FACING THE CEILING,
SUSPECTED TO BE DEAD,
WAS CAPTURED BY FAIRPRICE WHITE FACIAL TISSUE,
AND LOCKED UP IN RUBBISH BIN.
END OF NEWS BREAK
and so i ended up with just 4 of her books =x=x=x
which came up to 50 bucks after a 30% discount.
hehehe.
walked around abit more,
and went to S&K,
bought jeans at 12 bucks (closing-down sale!),
had dinner,
and went back home.
ahhhh,
the wonders of paydays,
discounts,
closing-down sales,
.
.
.
.
.
and SHIELDTOX.
LOLLLL
time to sleep dont you think?
nights=)
cant help thinking would my decision have already been made long ago,
if things had turned out differently?
i dont know how am i going to face my fear,
but maybe i will just have to, this time round.