Monday, April 28, 2008
treasure happiness while it's around.
the world we live in,
is a magical yet unpredictable place
where anything can happen anytime.
you MAY be at the height of ur career,
feeling like the luckiest person in the world,
with everything you could ever wish for,
and then wham!,
the unpredictable hits you right smack in the gut.
may have had a sixth sense,
may have seen it coming,
might have known all along someday it'll happen,
but its definitely not called unpredictable for nothing.
loss.
everyone experiences it one time or another.
whether it happens when you're young,
or even when you're old,
whether its someone,
or something.
its still the same.
the only difference is in what you lost,
and in what way it affects your life,
or even the others around you.
but no matter what is it that happens,
we move on,
life moves on.
on whether will the someone or something we lost
ever come back again,
we'll never know.
buy a new one, get a new one, ppl say.
but the first will always be special,
will always be the one you think of the most,
wishing for every second in your life,
it'll come back to you once again.
but fate and destiny had worked up a plan since long ago,
and try as we might,
we'll never be able to change it.
accept the new,
adapt to the new,
but most importantly,
dont forget the old.
for its the past,
whether happy or sad,
which will get us through the darkest days,
days when you just feel like giving up,
when nothing you do seems right.
let go, let go,
but never forget.
dont you dare add to the numbers.
dont you dare.
and i wont let you.
remember the promises.
be a man,
and honour it.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
how
many
more
nights.
how
many
more
months.
six
long
years.
and
counting....
how
many
more
years
till
reality
no
longer
haunts.
maybe that day will just never come.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
2nd time.-.-
i set myself a target to last a year.
but when crap like this comes,
a year seems like a personal path to suicide.
i may complain,
but i will also try my best to persevere.
just freaking endure.
there's nothing else to say,
but ppl are leaving one after another.
doesnt that already speak for itself?
Saturday, April 05, 2008
don't know what's happening to me.& to say the truth,
i don't want to know.
ever since last week.
i've been feeling rather disorientated.
like the 'me' is not me.
and recently i've been rather down,
though i still joke around,
but when that happens i'll be pretty quiet,
and just want to be left alone.
& when i'm working,
i can suddenly just blank out,
or get really blur about what to do.
i think it's because i'm thinking too much,
that's why sometimes
i don't even notice when ppl are calling me,
or it takes a long time for me to process anything ppl say.
quite a no. of ppl have told me the same thing already.
-.-
it feels weird,
it all feels so weird.
hopefully i won't be like that anymore next week.
wake up, sihan, wake up..