Thursday, November 30, 2006
i hav no right to stop u from havin any frens. its ur life, its ur choice. wad i can only do is to gif advice n hope u'll come to ur senses. im sure u noe wads he's lik. n i'll wun forgive and forget so easily the way he treated *. if u still tink he's ok, and still dun wan to keep a distance, den i hav nth to say le. most impt is ure happy lor.
jus dun wish to see someone whom i treasure to be hurt by someone who has shown his true colours. it has already happened once, n i dun wan it to happen again. zzz. no one can ever predict the future, n no one noes wad wil happen de.
im nt askin u to ignore him totally, but jus remind urself wad kind of guy he's lik and kp a distance wun u. i cant control who u wan to be close to, but i jus wish the person is anyone but him ='( im really really really scared. tink i say so much, also nt much use ba. in the end the choice is still yours. its either u distance urself from him, or u risk losin me sooner or later. i noe this sounds guo fen, but im at a lost le, jus try to ? pls ? if u wun impt to me, den i wudnt even care in the first place. jus bu xiang yan zheng zheng kan zhe ni bei shang hai, ye bu xiang si qu ni.
*really feel lik cryin. its because i care. abt u. =(*
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
jus realised its been a long time since i last updated. 0.o last fri, sat n sun, we went for the chevrolet driveaway trip to msia. supposed the rest of the teams at a place in tuas by 7. but at 7.10 we were still circlin arnd tryin to find d meet up place. cute rite. zzz but heng in the end still managed to find. n when we were settin off, we discovered dere was someone drivin a nissan sunny in our convoy when it was supposed to b a chevrolet driveaway. tsktsk. anyway, first stop was at yong peng to eat anthony's fishball noodles. damn nice can !!! lol.
after breakfast, d whole convoy headed off towards shah alam. n we had walkie talkies in our cars! so fun =D. but gt talkie still gt ppl manage to take wrong turns n stuffs. rofl. one time, tt kuku car (we called it 'yam cake' coz it was purple in colour. LOL) in front of us took a wrong turn n led the cars behind him the wrong way. heng still got our road marshalls behind us to lead us back on the right track. lol. nth really interestin happened on d drives, but the overtakin of cars on the 2 lane roads were horrigible. can practically see the cars opp. comin closer n closer. if really head-on collision den hallelujah le. lol.
den from shah alam, drove on towards ipoh after stoppin for lunch. i forgot at wad restaurant n eat wad le. 0.o loll. at arnd 7+ we finally reached the resort, to be more precise, swiss garden resort in damai laut. on the way into the resort got 19 humps k!! walao. sit till backside pain. n we reached tt time, jus nice see sunset !! omg..hmm but this pic doesnt seem to do the sunset much justice la. haha. see wit ur own eyes nicer! 
in the evenin we had a hawaiian theme dinner. which was quite fun but the food so-so only. lol. 2nd day, some of the teams went to pangkor island but we went to giant instead. LOLL. bought quite a no. of things. but imagine queuing in the express lane(1o items or else), 3 ppl in front of u.....for 20 mins. WTH. den after tt went back to the resort. actually wanted to go canoeing (foc) but the waves abit too big so we played soccer instead. but the sand damn big and hard sia. -_- after soccer, went swimming for a while den 6+ went for seafood dinner. wakaka.
den on the last day sunday, we set off at 9 in the mornin for the drive back to singapore. at the mornin briefin, d organisers told us tt estimated time to reach s'pore wud b 8pm for those nt goin to the hot spring, and 12 midnite for those goin. more abt tt later.
the drive on the way back had more scenic views. esp the mountains tt had been thru erosion. loll. n on the way back, it started rainin. but the rain itself was interestin coz for 5 secs, the rain was so heavy we cudnt see much of the roads thru the windscreen and den after tt 5 secs, there was no more rain. and further up the road the same thing happened again. 0.o cute sia the rain. lol. before n after pics, 5 to 10 secs apart. 0.0
next is a pic of a mountain along the road, and i tink its more lik man-made than made by nature.
d trip back took longer than wad the organisers expected. as mentioned earlier, we were supposed to reach s'pore by 8pm, but at 9.30, we jus reached yong peng for dinner. LOL!! after dinner, it was a 1hr+ drive towards s'pore. and we reached the msia customs at arnd 11+ goin to 12midnite. haha den causeway jam, so after passin thru the customs, reached s'pore at arnd 12.30 to 1am. ZZZ 0.o n mind u, we didnt go for the hot spring on the way back to s'pore, and we reached 4hrs + after the anticipated time. imagine those who went to the hot spring, 4am+ den will reach singapore sia. OMG!!!!
-end of trip- =D
*idunexpectmuch.nijuswantachance.isitreallyimpossible? =(*
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
im in one of 'those' moods tdy.. zzz..
'those' moods when everythin comes floodin back..
that leave me feeling tt im really hopeless..
lik im jus a speck of dust in this huge world..
tt i dun matter at all..
zzz
been feelin VERY sleepy this few days..
0.o
oh well..ignore me..
im jus in one of those moods..
Saturday, November 11, 2006
but i cant help it..zzz
everythin about u..
just affects me so damn much..
whyy ??
*i cry silently, i cry inside of me. but do u noe ?*
Thursday, November 09, 2006
maybe she's right..sch's really kinda becomin sian.. im nt sure abt the reason y..but it jus feels tt way.. hmm.. atmosphere's kinda weird.. zzz at least someone feels the same way as me.. lol.. meBbe we're jus tinkin too much ba..
then besides that, still got a lot of other reason y sian la.. these few wks lik wander arnd aimlessly, feel quite lost also.. zzz.. i tink i shud start to heck care abt everythin tts happenin in my life le. i dun wan this to happen, but some things tt were once important, seems to hav fallen down the importance rankin ladder..-_-..can someone tell me whyy ???
im hopin this 'sian' phase will blow over soon.. i wan everythin to be alrite.. dun wan everyday to be lidat so sian.. haizz..
*easily affected by people, their actions and their attitude. so much so it pisses me off sometimes*
Sunday, November 05, 2006
ji ran yong you guo, na ni you he bi diu diao yi qie ne? zhuo le na me shang ran de shi, ni xian zai cai lai hou hui, shi bu shi you dian tai chi le ne? zhao zhi jing ri, he bi dang chu? yao shi dang chu na jian shi mei fa shen, wo men jing tian de ri zi hui shi zhe me yang de? hui shi xing fu, hai shi hui dai lai gen duo de bei shang, shang tong. shi qing yi jing fa shen na me jiu le, wo zhi dao wo ye ying gai ji xu shen huo. dan ni zhi dao ma? wo zhuo bu dao. wo de shen ming, jiu hao xiang zhai na tian ting zhi le. hao xiang zhuan hui shi jian, zhuan hui dao quan bu de shi qing hai mei fa shen de shi hou. ru guo ke yi de hua, wo men jiu ke yi kuai kuai le le, xing fu de guo ri zi le. dan xian zai shuo zhe xie, huo xu ye you dian tai chi le. ying wei, shi bu ke nen hui fa sheng de.
zhe liang nian lai, wo yi zhi bao yi ge xi wang. jiu shi you yi tian, huo xu wo men quan bu hui yuan liang dui fang, he hao qi lai, hui dao yi qian de zhuang tai. sui ran bu ken jie shou shi shi, dan xin li ye zhi dao, ying gai shi bu ke nen de ba. sui ran ta yi jing you ban le, dan mei ci ti dao ni, dou ke yi gan jue dao, ta shi hu hai xiang zhe ni, you shi ye shou dao cha bu duo yao ku le. kan le wo ye you dian xin suan, xin tong.
zhe me shi qing hui dao zhe zhong di bu ne ? nan dao, wo de xi wang, jiu yong yuan bu nen shi xian ma ? wei she me yao shi wo. wo zhuo cuo le she me le ma ? wei ho yao gei wo yi ge wo yong you 16 nian de dong xi, ran huo jiu ba ta cong wo shen shang na diao ne ? wei she me. wei she me. nan dao wo gen qi ta ren bu tong ma ? nan dao wo jiu bu nen yong you ta men you de dong xi ma ? wo de ren, wo de xin, bu shi yong shi tou zhuo de. wo ye hui gan dao tong ku, wo ye hui ku. 16 nian lai, wo yi wei ni hai guo de hen xin fu. mei xiang dao, ni shi hen xin fu, dan ni bu shi cong wo men dan zhong qu dao le na ge xin fu. ni ba shi qing nong dao zhe zhong di bu, nan dao ni jiu kai xin ma?
wo mei tian dou gao su zi ji, gai shi shi hou fang shou le ying wei shi qing yi jing dao le ge wei duan le. ge zhou ge lu, ye xu shi zui hao de ban fa. kou li shi na me shuo, dan xin li que bu shi na me xiang. ni yao wo ba 16 nian de ji yi diu diao, wo zhuo bu dao. shuo wo gu zhi, shuo wo ben, shuo wo shen jing, wo she me dou bu guan, wo jiu shi zhuo bu dao. wo zhen de hao lei, liang nian lai, ying man le hen duo shi shi, mei jin li guo de ren, you ru he liao jie wo xin qing ne? you shi hou, wo xiang wo ke yi yuan liang ni. dan you shi hou, wo gen ben bu xiang yuan liang ni. wo dao di gai zhe me zhuo ne ? ni jue de wo men xian zai guo de kai xin ma ? na ni jiu chuo le. sui ran ta kou shen shen shuo na fan hua, dan ye kan de chu ta gen wo yi yang, fang bu xia guo qu.
shuo dao yuan liang, zhe shi jie shang, you liang ge ren wo shi yuan yong, dao wo si le, wo dou bu hui yuan liang de. di yi jiu shi na ge ren...er di er ge ne ? jiu shi wo zi ji. wo guai zi ji mei yong, wu fa zhuo ren he shi lai bu hui qi qie. er qie wo, fan le ge da cuo, you zai fan da cuo. yi ding shi wo zhuo cuo le she me, cai hui rang ni ne me zhuo. yi qie dou shi wo de cuo.
zhen tian dai zhe ge kuai le, yi zhi zai xiao de mian ju, hao lei orh.. wo ye bu xiang zai ku le, dan cha bu duo mei wan, jiu hui ren bu zhu. gao su zi ji bie ku, shi qing yi jing guo le, dan you xiang dao ni na shi qiu ta de yang zi.........suan le, zhe ye ke yi suan shi ni zi zhao de bu shi ma ? yi hou, bie zai fan tong yang de cuo le..
*hao xiang wang diao yi qie, sui yi ge hen chang de jiao, yong bu qi shen*
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
DAMN TULAN LA !!! FUG
for ppl who haven seen me really angry before..
pls be thankful..
and better pray tt u nv ever see me really angry..
jus lik now..
im ready to kill..
to inflict pain on smth..
anything..