Tuesday, February 23, 2010
finally back in aussieland!
its kinda rlly hot right now..zzz but it's kinda good to be back too..looking forward to autumn, and totally not missing summer right nw..will be going down south to margaret river tmr tho, so hopefully it wud be cooler!
sch supposedly started tis wk, but im giving myself a wk off to go travelling with mummy :) tho that also means that i will have a wk's amt of work and ilecs to catch up on. aww..but its probably worth it..
being back with the cousins, and non-cousin, is good..the constant crap that we talk about and the laughin, it allows me to escape from thinkin about stuffs that i should not have had to bother with, much less know about..but then, i think i would rather know, and be troubled, than not knowing at all. ok, i duno, its messy -.-
was kinda sad he wasnt there to send me off at the airport, though it probably would have made everything awkward once again..zzz..damnit, when is this just going to end. why cant they just act like normal people..it's easy for them, ignoring each other, but i'm the one trapped in the middle, i'm the one always being the messenger, at the same time trying to pacify either side. zzz enough complaining.
am waiting for non-cousin's sms...and then it's a call and im off to bed..moving out at 8 tmr..gotta wake early!! nights people..
Sunday, February 14, 2010
lalala driving test: conquered!
hehe...im happy...happy....happyyyyyyyy CHINESE NEW YEAR!
and Happyyyyyy Valentine's to all singles and couples out there!
haha was really nervous before my test warmup tdy..made a few minor mistakes but felt better after that! got 12 demerit points for the actual zzzzz mostly for failin to check the rear view mirror before slowing =x=x my bad habit..
and luckily there were lesser cars on the road today since most of the factories are closed BUT!!!!! that stretch of road along Ubi that sells alot of roasted pork/chix/duck products, there was so many cars illegally parked there coz ppl were collecting their purchases AND i had to do my U-turn there and my path was blocked by them, which means that i had to stop behind them, reverse, and then turn right to go again, which was a pain because i dont even know if that was allowed, so much so i thought i was going to fail cause of that zzz haha but it turned out to be quite funny cause when we were in the testor room after the test, i heard my testor complaining to another testor about who said that stretch of road has less cars when there were so many cars parked there..lol ANDDD he mentioned that he was going to call his colleagues to that area to book those illegally parked cars. wakakaaa...
but oh wells, i passed anyway!!! muahaha...and my mum insisted i drive straight after that, to build up confidence she said 0.o even made me go on the highway which was scary initially...she practically made me driver of the day (or days from nw on) today. we went from novena where she finished her tuition, to go back home...and then from home to Sengkang for reunion dinner, then from Sengkang to Chinatown and then back home again, which we reached at around 2am..zzz i didnt fall aslp at the wheel!!! hahaha
ok, im off to bed now....will be slping soundly tonight! hahahaa
nights people, and Happy CNY once again! =D
Thursday, February 11, 2010
yet another hour, yet another day.
played my last badminton match of the chinese new (old) year..
and i'm going to miss it so much.
3 months has flown by just in a blink of the eye, and in 8 days time,
i'll be on the plane and on my way back to aussieland.
when i was still in aussieland, i told people that i preferred s'pore to there
because it was more accessible, food or transport wise. however, when i
got back here, i preferred aussieland more, haha what a contradiction. i think
it was cause of the heat, BUT, as time passed, i realised i preferred s'pore once again.
seems like i just can't make up my own mind. i've been thinking what made me change
my mind so many times, and i think i know why now.
i would say that i'm able to adapt quite well to changes, so as long as
i'm used to one place, i'll start thinking that that place itself is better hence the
always changing mindset. by being back in singapore, i started to realise the stuffs
that i've missed out on while i was away. many of you would think that food would
be a huge factor for me just because i love to eat (i'm fat i know), but it never was.
i've said i can adapt and even if that means missing out on Char Kuay Teow and whatnots,
i still can. nonetheless, the food here is still much cheaper than in aussie. Of course, i
can't stop you from thinking that i'm lying and that food is most important to me.
i've been thinking whether i should stay on in aussieland to get my PR and to find work
once i've graduated, i would say the idea sounds tempting, especially since the pay
is generally higher. i've had many people say i would definitely stay there, get married
to an angmoh, and not come back anymore since angmo is better than local, and
OF COURSE, that is true. but would i do that? at the end of the day, no matter what
shortcomings, no matter what memories i have here (good or bad) or how inferior
people think s'pore is compared to aussie, this is where HOME is.
no matter how many years i would work there for, at the end of the day, this is where
i will come back to. why would i not? my friends are here, my badminton kakis are here
(HAHA how can i leave out badminton), my families ARE here.
there's only 1 condition in which i would stay permanently in aussie, and that is if
my mum manages to get her PR too.
or MAYBE, everything is said too early, and who knows, i may change my thinking
as time goes by hahaha. we'll see! ;p
8 days to go!...can't say i'm really really looking forward to it though. LOL
Monday, February 01, 2010
"its not how much, but how you run in a court that makes the difference"....
badminton court that is....the very first time i played badminton was in sec sch, way back in sec 1 when we first started school and had to choose a CCA to join..we didnt really know each other yet then, but somehow the 6 of us girls agreed to join badminton tgt. i think all of them had played badminton in pri sch before, except for me. since we had to have a 'trial' before they allowed you to join, i thought i was definitely going to not make the cut, but somehow i did get accepted! all 6 of us did anyway, and amazingly, all 6 of us managed to get into the sch team out of 7 slots avail. (2 pairs of Doubles and 3 Singles). imagine when we had competitions and had to leave the class early..lol that was fun.
training was fun (but tiring), and maybe it was because we already knew each other from class so it seemed more fun. dont really rmb who was our first coach, but i rmb we had this coach from China, who always brought a whole loaf of bread in his bag 0.o haha he was a good coach, but not strict enough, thus he always got bullied by us =x=x hahhaa he would ask us to train but we would insist on playing matches instead and he had no choice but to let us. but of cause we did train too, and i would say i improved quite a lot under him, especially my footwork. he would always tell us that the very basic thing a badminton player should have, is good footwork. it is only with proper footwork that you will be able to cover the whole court, covering the distance in the shortest time possible, and giving yourself a good position to return your shot.
the coach after him probably didnt last for quite long, cause i sorta remember his face and nothing else...LOL! in sec 3, we got another coach, and i think the rest would agree with me that he was the best amongst the ones we had, in terms of building a rapport with us. he looked sorta of beng-ish, and he did managed to get us to listen to him unlike the china one. hahahah and he always came with very loose shoelaces (didnt tie them), and even played matches with us that way without the shoe flying off! i respect him!!..lol
when i first started in sec 1, as my skills back then were noob-ish compared to the rest, i had to play doubles, which was what i would choose even if i was good enough to play singles, cause i didnt want to have to run the whole court by myself! =x but over the year i improved quite alot, mainly cause this other girl was always trying to show that she was better than me and i wanted to be better than her just to goad over her (basically i just hate being lousier than others and i dont like to lose to other people, BIG ego im sry...lol) ..also, since a team of 7 has 3 singles slots, thus obviously only the 3 best players can play singles. hehehe rivalry...the good old days..
and my happiest day came when the teacher-in-charge, (a coach himself) told me i've improved alot too..and after speaking to the coach, and after having me play a match with the then-3rd singles (which i won)..they changed me from doubles to 3rd singles...wahahahaa even though i wasn't the best in the team, but i was happy enough that i was 3rd best and playing singles (even tho i had to run more)! what was even sweeter was that the girl was still stuck playing doubles...woots...first rivalry won!! hohohoo....maybe i have to thank her instead, as if it wasn't for her, i wouldn't have been at the standard i was back then. as i said before, i didnt like losing to others and i wanted to be the best, and i did manage to win against the 2nd singles. but when it came to the match against the 1st singles, she refused to play a proper match against me, purposely hitting wayward shots, wanting to let me win...i really wanted to know if i had become the best by winning against her, but since she didnt want to play properly, i didnt want to force it too, and i started hitting wayward shots too...LOL it turned out to be quite funny cause the coach knew we weren't serious and scolded us but we kept doing it haha.
but in the 4 years we didnt manage to win any competitions, and that in itself was a failure to me. the furthest we went was only quarter-finals in Sec 2 (when i was still playing doubles), and we could have gone to the semis, but guess who messed up? ME zzz
the competition consisted of 3 singles and 2 doubles games, with a single starting first, followed by doubles, singles, doubles, ending with singles again. as we were playing against a relatively good school, we decided to let our better players play last with the hope that the sch will send their strongest out first so that by the time our better players play, they will meet with weaker opponents, thus giving us a fighting chance to win. i remember that a few days before the match, i had an asthma attack and i definitely wasnt feeling at my best, but i thought that few days was enough for me to recover, and the day before the match i was feeling much better though i didnt have 100% of my strength. the teacher-in-charge even came to my class to ask if i was alright and if i would be able to play the next day, if nt he would put someone else in. i told him yes i felt alright, thinking the lack of strength part wasnt a problem.
our coach got the correct strategy, as they really did send their strong players out first, and we lost our first 2 matches, which meant that we absolutely had to win our last 3 matches as the team which won 3 matches out of the 5 would win the overall..which meant if we lost the 3rd match, then it would have been 3:0 and the last 2 matches would have became redundant since the other school would have already won. BUT we managed to win the 3rd match, thus setting the score at 2:1. the pressure was then on to my match cause if we lost, then it would be over. me and my partner usually played front and back instead of side by side since her netting was better than mine and i was better at controlling the back. needless to say, the lack of strength came back to haunt me, as everything i hit only reached the opponents' half court, giving them good oppurtunities to smash us, and when i had the oppurtunity, i just lacked the strength to execute a proper smash. no prizes for guessing that we lost the match, thus officially ending our semis hope.
yes, its no use crying over spilt milk, but even now i keep thinking what if i had told the teacher i wasnt feeling at my best, to ask him to put another player in, would we have won instead? what if we had still lost with me not playing, would the others have been angry with me for withdrawing from the squad as i looked ok except that i felt i didnt have the strength, thinking that since i was ok, we could probably have won with me playing?
thinking back to that match, i still feel guilty for causing us a semi spot, even though the others said
that it's not entirely my fault since we didnt win the first 2 matches anyway, putting pressure on the players in the last 3 matches. BUT im sure they could see how badly i played, heck, even i knew i played badly that day, and at a crucial period when we had to win our match, i stuffed up. big time.
that will always remain the lowest point of my sec sch badminton life. all i can say now is, what if?
well i stopped playing badminton after i graduated from sec sch. and just last yr end, i picked it up again, playing with a bunch of aunties and uncles, friends of my relative. and HEY! dont look down on them just because they are aunties and uncles ok....some of them are really very good, and even i lose to them! tsk tsk...
okie enough for now...its 6am!!! omigosh, didnt know i typed that long..nites!