Friday, February 02, 2007
been tinkin of smth all tis while....is it really hard to make urself hate someone.. esp. someone impt? it has taken me more than a year, n i still cant do it.. m i tt useless? even nw when i feel so abandoned, i still cant do it.. ARGHHHH..ytd i posted a qns to some ppl, lets say u have a close fren..n slowly u realise theres someone who comes along, talkin, smsin, joking wit ur close fren..n u dunno what they're talkin abt at all.. hw wud u feel?? at least nw i noe im nt d only one who will feel d way ive been feelin all tis time.. n i cant help bein upset or cryin whenever i tink abt it.. is frenship really lik glass? lik no matter wad u do, its definitely bound to break some day?..its jus a matter of when isnt it.. n moreover, nobody can control who someone wans to befriend..
last nite many things were goin thru my mind..1) pretend i dun care n dun mind, jus walk away whenever im upset.. 2) try my best to get things back to d way they were before.. 3) or jus accept d fact tt im nt that needed anymore, let them be while i slowly distance myself? duno la....='(
why mus smth lik tis happen? if im d one who cant get someone else smth they wan d most, den...i shudnt get upset when someone else can...right? hatin u, is hard..hatin myself, easy...
*i hope u'll understand hw i feel =(*