Sunday, April 29, 2007
sian...
really is very very very very sian..
try this, try that..
still the same..
still the same..
give me some clues..
tell me what to do..
coz i really
SIAN DIAO LE.
-_-
i dun wan talk le..
SIAN k...SIANNNNNN
zzz
Friday, April 27, 2007
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went shoppin at s&k ytd, bought a jacket, and gt mistaken for a salesperson there 0.o and the gal so funny, keep apologisin lik im goin to somehw eat her up -_- den after tt she n her frens kp gigglin and laughin. ok wth. rofl.
and and!! at first i tod the rotatin class didnt hav any nice lookin guys at all. budden the 2nd lesson, i noticed the isaiah look-alike we saw when we were in yr 2 was in d class also! rofll out of 3 classes, only got 1 him nice lookin de. pathetic rite. zzz the other program one, better =X
i wanna get tt perfume tt costs 99 bucks. tt one in 8 days, its bein sold in robinsons nw. amor amor by cacharel.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
kk sher wants to hear abt the locker thingy, here goes: tt day after POO (nono, nt the action u do in d toilet) tut we went to the locker to put things and after closin it, the thing itself seemed quite loose, and we were nt sure if we locked it properly anot. so i went arnd pullin every other locker to see if its the same.d 1st 2 i pulled didnt even moved abit, so it mus be our locker's fault. anyway i came to the 3rd one, i pulled, and guess what! a ball came rollin down from the top, coz some nutcase of a person didnt even closed his/her locker properly, much alone locked it, and when i pulled it, it jus opened up. LOL
if ure wonderin if i gt hit by the ball, no i didnt. but sher said my facial reaction was hilarious, and we jus cudnt stop laughin abt the whole incident. n when we were leavin, sher left the whole door wide open 0.o DEAR GOD, PLS BLESS THE OWNER, AMEN =D
went out wit J on friday, first to amk central to play pool, den after tt cudnt decide whether to go to novena or to vivocity. wanted to go town, but someone was in bermudas and slippers so didnt want to go, sayin its malu. only when wear long pants n long sleeve den can go town. ok WTH. rofl. but in the end, we ended up at vivo. and i asked,'y u wear lidat can come vivo but cant go town.' 'coz its jus different,' was the ans i got 0_0
left the place arnd 7+ den i made my way to centrepoint, wantin to get a haircut. budden my stylist wasnt in, sobs. so i went IN to times the bookshop to read, and came OUT 20 bucks poorer. LOL 'tiger forces: the shockin true story of american soldiers out of control in vietnam' by Michael Sallah & Mitch Weiss. quite an interestin read judgin by the title. i'll read it soon, and we'll see. oh yeah tks J, for the necklace =)
i felt nothin. jus all numb and empty on the inside. was it because the last one was invadin my mind? im jus as clueless too. i'll try to make tis work. but on the other hand, i hav no confidence. sry, but im jus not ready yet. not until i sort out my stuffs. and i duno hw long tt will take. nw the only remainin question is, will u be able to wait, only to face an uncertain future? i cant give u a promise and it'll be cruel for me to give u hope only to let u down. to wait, or not to wait, its up to u.
i felt nothin. jus all numb and empty on the inside. was it because the last one was invadin my mind? im jus as clueless too. i'll try to make tis work. but on the other hand, i hav no confidence. sry, but im jus not ready yet. not until i sort out my stuffs. and i duno hw long tt will take. nw the only remainin question is, will u be able to wait, only to face an uncertain future? i cant give u a promise and it'll be cruel for me to give u hope only to let u down. to wait, or not to wait, its up to u.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
life sure is kinda sucky rite now.and im down with flu!
last 2 nites, didnt slp well at all.
last nite was worse than d day before.
went to bed at 11, fell aslp only at 12.30
den 2am wake up, coz nose block then very xin ku.
was wide awake by now le. so on-ed my com n played abit of maple.
4am, went back on to bed. lie there till 5+ den really fall aslp again.
n 5+ when i almost fell aslp, had 2 diff nitemares in my sub-consious state.
scary can..and nv slp well, all d way to 6.40 wake up prepare go sch =(
waliewwww..
heard of anyone, blow nose till hungry de? =p
im 99% sure ive lost my passion to attend lessons in sch. lonely can, 'cept for lectures.
feelinnnnn soooooo downnnnn. argh.
*like a wrong piece of puzzle tt doesnt fits in*
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
my mum just flew off this mornin, to cambodia. leavin her poor daughter here to rot =( loll nvm, at least soon it'll be friday and she'll be back.sch's ok, but theres tis weird vibe that some ____.
gettin sick nw is goin to create a whole new lot of probs for me. and i feel a flu comin. oh man, shit it zzz.
of all the subtitles of vcds that ive watched, the most ingenious subtitles must be those such as, '[horses neighing]', '[men shouting]', '[glasses shattering]', '[swords and shield clashin]', and much more. so they think we're deaf, or do they tink we cant differentiate the sounds for ourselves? lolll WEIRD.
actually, i dun hav anythin to blog about. LOL
i said i'll always be here, am i the one you look for when u hav troubles?
Sunday, April 15, 2007
sch's startin..in like 11 and a half hrs. omigAWD !!duno whether to be elated, or sad, or sian. lolll
but at least, no more slackin in front of d com at home le =D
spent $40 bucks tdy. on a game cd, and on a sound cd. spend so long to tink wad to buy not. but since whole hols nv spend much money, gave in in the end. hahha
i tink my mum is weird.......i tell her i wan go cold storage work, do anythin lik stocktake, sales wadeva also can, i dun mind de. and she said, 'dun wan laaa.' nt becoz d job or pay nt gd, but coz she doesnt wan me to work. seems lik every mum i encounter cant wait for their children to go out find work, but mine wud rather give me an allowance every wk, den after tt come complain say she everywk mus gif me money. kk so it becomes my fault. wth -_- ROFLL cute rite. =D
eee..he wan go back batam work..waliew..i will worry eh..there lik security nt tt gd lehhhh, den mus travel here travel there by boat. rather he stay in singapore work =( later come back with ***** ***** somemore. omggg..=S
and then hor, my ***** ***** for 1 wk le siaaa.. mum said wait awhile more n see wad happens. eee hope is nt side effect. AGAIN. -__ SIANN can.
kk nth to blog abt leeeeeeeeeee..first day of sch, TSK.
wad shud i do, coz i noe i still will let her down in d end. how how.
Friday, April 13, 2007
nIcE st0rY! the gAl's s0 sweEt, and mAtuRe, and stRonG. lol read on! =D
Her hair was up in a pony tail,her favorite dress tied with a bow. Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go. But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home. Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone. But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her classmates of why he wasn't there today. But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all. About a dad she never sees; a dad who never calls. There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet. Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats. One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed. At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare. Each of them was searching, for a man who wasn't there. "Where's her daddy at?" she heard a boy call out. "She probably doesn't have one," another student dared to shout. And from somewhere near the back, she heard a daddy say, "Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day."
The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom. And looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on. And with hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak. And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique. "My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away. But I know he wishes he could be, since this is such a special day. And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know. All about my daddy, and how much he loves me so. He loved to tell me stories he taught me to ride my bike. He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite. We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone. And though you cannot see him. I'm not standing here alone.
"Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we are apart. I know because he told me, he'll forever be in my heart"
"Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we are apart. I know because he told me, he'll forever be in my heart"
With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest. Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress. And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears. Proudly watching her daughter,who was wise beyond her years. For she stood up for the love of a man not in her life. Doing what was best for her, doing what was right. And when she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd. She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud. "I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star. And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven's just too far. You see he was a firefighter and died just this past year. When airplanes hit the towers and taught Americans to fear. But sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away."
And then she closed her eyes, and she saw him there that day. And to her mothers amazement, she witnessed with surprise. A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes. Who knows what they saw before them, who knows what they felt inside. Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side. "I know you're with me Daddy," to the silence she called out. And what happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt.
Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed. But there on the desk beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose. And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, by the love of her shining star. And given the gift of believing, that heaven is never too far. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.
"You were the one who made things different, you were the one who took me in. You were the one thing I could count on, above all, you were my friend."- Tom Petty
Thursday, April 12, 2007
tell me tell me..how to be optimistic, when 60% of things
are going wrong in life.
and nothing seems to be showin signs of improvin.
confidence, 30%
self-doubt, 80%
doubts, 100%!!
what does it mean to lose something?
zzz
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
playin the stock market is risky. but if ure lucky, who noes. lol but still....the chance of gettin burned is still horribly high. better be safe than sry =/i hav seen and knew too much from few yrs back to nw, tt i tink i'll rather not join the company. it may always seem so gd on the surface but look beneath d surface, wad u get is a totally different story. n havin too much money is not always a gd thing too. money can be both a pleasure, and yet a horror. contradiction isnt it, tt smth so nice, can also be d cause of all troubles. tsk. n even if u made it big, ure rich and enjoyin the high life now, it doesnt mean tt few yrs down the road, things will be jus as rosy. tsktsk. and i nv would hav imagined a cheque for 400 bucks to bounce. wth. 'nuff said.
on another topic, talkin to humans is really an uphill task sometimes. the way they reply u, alamak, i duno wad to say. sometimes im better off talkin to the computer on my table, and u noe wad's so amazin, it replies me! with stuff like for example, 'A Critical Error Has Occurred'. ok wait......tts not wad i wan to hear, but still....................loll at least it doesnt sounds frustrated. rofl
tdy was an okok day, if nt for the fact tt it decided to rain on a day i decide i felt lik goin to town. anyway i met wit 3 new frens tdy. first was jas, den elf and then rach. lol. its too long to elaborate on the details so im nt goin to even try. it'll jus bore u ppl to death anyway. rofl. its jus sufficient enuff for u to noe tt me, jas and elf were meetin for the first time, and imagine the awkwardness of not knowin wad to say to one another. LOL ! rach was a diff case tho, coz i didnt arrange to meet her. she smsed me in d morn to ask if i was goin to town so i said yes. and while i was walkin arnd wit jas n elf and smsin her at the same time, i spotted her. so i lik called and asked (jus to cfm coz its the first time im seein her), 'hey, r u standin in front of a drinks stall?' she replied, 'er yeah, where r u?' so i said, 'turn around.. *she turns arnd*...hi ! *both waves* kk im goin to lucky plaza nw. i'll talk to u next time den. haha. bye.' n my day was spent roamin arnd town till my mum came to pick me up at arnd 8+, 9. now...........admit it, ive bored u to death havent i. lolll dun wry, d story has ended =p
"No lapse of time or distance of place can lessen the friendship of those who are truly persuaded of each other's worth."
Monday, April 09, 2007
sometimes, reading frenship quotes from webs are not a bad thing.
coz it makes you realise what you should be doing,
what you shouldn't be doing,
and whatever you're doing wrong.
and yeahh, it really made me realise some things about myself.
haha no matter what, its not too late to change. lol
Special friends are the ones who never leave your heart, even if they leave your life for a while. Even after years apart, you pick up with them right where you left off.
Sunday, April 08, 2007
10 years back, you caught a guy's attention.
& now,
he tells you
exactly when was the first time he saw you,
the exact place,
what happened that day,
even exactly what you were wearing on that day,
right to the smallest detail.
10 yrs.
10 yrs.
will you be touched?
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
haha like all of a sudden, i feel so carefree.at least now, i dun have to keep thinkin whether its true,
or am i just tinkin too much.
dun try so hard, i'll rmb that.
will better one, i'll pray for that.
a step at a time.
from somewhere, i have to find that courage,
i have to find that strength,
& yes, i can do it.
its a fierce battle, this is.
2 years? nahh, i'll prove u wrong.
prove u so wrong u'll have to eat the results.
LOL.
its a fresh NEW beginning.
as troubles sow,
the tears flow.
but away the troubles go,
with the wind as it blows.
& from this, i will grow.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
just one or rather, two words. fucked up.wish i hadnt asked this time round.
the other old woman, who fell down last wk is back.
mum stepped on a bee last nite.
the old man fell down tis morn climbin d chair. tsk.
and, i wonder if i shud tell u nw.
but den some things are better left unsaid for d moment.
*i'll jus dump my probs on myself, it doesnt matter. for deres only me left in my world. d rest hav went away*