Saturday, August 04, 2007
i tried sleeping,
but coughed too much to slp soundly.
and ended up back on the internet.
went blog-hopping.
read one of the entry on my cuz's blog.
& it sort of touched a raw nerve in me.
only child. we're more similar than i tot we were.
just like hw i was when i was at her age, arnd 13/14 years old,
my mum never really had time for me.
she was always at work, helpin out in my grandfather's shop.
so its always just my dad n me at home
when he comes home from work at around 6+pm.
the only time i could see her was late at night
when she reaches home at around 9+++pm.
even sat n sun for her was workin days.
family day??? we never had one.
for my cuz, like me, both her parents are also working.
& also jus like me, she was left alone most of the time.
even tho they attend church tgt on sunday,
but family day was almost inexistent too.
bein only childs' wit workin parents,
its typically a case of,
hungry? give money, go buy food.
no money? stretch ur hand give u money.
want something? use money buy for you.
everythin is jus money.
family? HUH what family?
its always said that we should learn from other's mistakes.
the sad thing is, we dont.
it will always take our own mistakes to wake us up.
and by then, regrets are useless.
i wish for my cuz's sake, her parents will wake up soon enough.
me and my mum.
we're closer than close since then.
at the end of the day, its just us both versus the rest.
& even her friends are jealous of hw close we both are.
but are they prepared to go thru wad we went thru?
our's a special bond born out of a broken bond,
she's a strong woman, and i love her to bits.
i really miss him.
& im sure somehow, somewhere,
she does too.
if only....