Monday, October 08, 2007
whatever i post these few days, weeks, or even mths, is a summary
of all my feelings at that point of time.
sry if all my posts are moody,
coz evidently im not always in a gd mood these days.
for those who asked and cared in some ways or another,
tks alot for tryin to cheer me up.
if i seem unresponsive or ignore u totally, i apologize in advance.
when things are fine, i'll be back to my own self,
tho i dont know when tt will be, but still, tks once again =)
smtimes the feelings r so intense,
i feel i could crush a piece of glass with my bare hands,
but yet still feel no pain.
mad? yeah mad.
tired tired tired tired.
tired of pretending things are alright,
when i all feel like doing is scream n cry.
smtimes i wonder if im asking for too much,
or expecting too much.
i just want to feel appreciated
for the things i do smtimes.
i put in d effort to accept things,
even if it makes me angry or sad smtimes,
yet i dont even noe if ppl even appreciate it.
that kind of feeling, just hw do u describe it.
or is it because i am SUPPOSED to do all that?
0.o
its like smone has put d sun on slow blinkin mode,
smdays my world can be so happy n bright,
but other days it just puts my world is in a state of total darkness.
=/ =/ =/ haiz..
let me drown will you?
let me drown.